Took off my tee shirt and ripped it into 3 pieces.
Soaked it in water. Gave 2 pieces to my friends. Tied my piece around my
face to act as an air filter. And we all started moving to the staircase.
One of my dearest friends said that he was staying until the police or
firemen came to get him. In the halls there were tiny fires and sparks.
The ceiling had collapsed in the men 's bathroom. It was gone along with
anyone who may have been in there. We did not go in to look. We missed the
staircase on the first run and had to double back. Once in the staircase
we picked up fire extinguishers just incase. On the 85th floor a brave
associate of mine and I headed back up to our office to drag out my
partner who stayed behind. There was no air, just white smoke. We made the
rounds through the office calling his name. No response. He must have
succumbed to the smoke. We left defeated in our efforts and made our way
back to the stairwell. We proceeded to the 78th floor where we had to
change over to a different stairwell. 78 is the main junction to switch to
the upper floors. I expected to see more people. There were some 50 to 60
more. Not enough. Wires and fires all over the place. Smoke too. A brave
man was fighting a fire with the emergency hose. I stopped with to friends
to make sure that everyone from our office was accounted for. We ushered
them and confused people into the stairwell. In retrospect, I recall
seeing Harry, my head trader, doing the same several yards behind me. I am
only 35. I have known him for over 14 years. I headed into the stairwell
with 2 friends. We were moving down very orderly in Stair Case
A. very slowly. No panic. At least not overt panic. My legs could not stop
shaking. My heart was pounding. Some nervous jokes and laughter. I made a
crack about ruining a brand new pair of Merrells. Even still, they were
right, my feet felt great. We all laughed. We checked our cell phones.
Surprisingly, there was a very good signal, but the Sprint network was
jammed. I heard that the Blackberry 2 way email devices worked perfectly.
On the phones, 1 out of 20 dial attempts got through. I knew I could not
reach my wife so I called my parents. I told them what happened and that
we were all okay and on the way down. Soon, my sister in law reached me. I
told her we were fine and moving down. I believe that was about the 65th
floor. We were bored and nervous. I called my friend Angel in San
Francisco. I knew he would be watching. He was amazed I was on the phone.
He told me to get out that there was another plane on its way. I did not
know what he was talking about. By now the second plane had struck Tower
2. We were so deep into the middle of our building that we did not hear or
feel anything. We had no idea what was really going on. We kept making way
for wounded to go down ahead of us. Not many of them, just a few. No one
seemed seriously wounded. Just some cuts and scrapes. Everyone cooperated.
Everyone was a hero yesterday. No questions asked. I had co-workers in
another office on the 77th floor. I tried dozens of times to get them on
their cell phones or office lines. It was futile. Later I found that they
were alive. One of the many miracles on a day of tragedy. On
the 53rd floor we came across a very heavyset man sitting on the stairs. I
asked if he needed help or was he just resting. He needed help. I knew I
would have trouble carrying him because I have a very bad back. But my
friend and I offered anyway. We told him he could lean on us. He
hesitated, I don't know why. I said do you want to come or do you want us
to send help for you. He chose for help. I told him he was on the 53rd
floor in Stairwell A and that's what I would tell the rescue workers. He
said
okay and we left. On the 44th floor my phone
rang again. It was my parents. They were hysterical. I said relax, I'm
fine. My father said get out, there is third plane coming. I still did not
understand. I was kind of angry. What did my parents think? Like I needed
some other reason to get going? I couldn 't move the thousand people in
front of me any faster. I know they love me, but no one inside understood
what the situation really was. My parents did. Starting around this floor
the firemen, policemen, WTC K-9 units without the dogs, anyone with a
badge, started coming up as we were heading down. I stopped a lot of them
and told them about the man on 53 and my friend on 87. I later felt
terrible about this. They headed up to find those people and met death
instead. On the 33rd floor I spoke with a man who somehow new
most of the details. He said 2 small planes hit the building. Now we all
started talking about which terrorist group it was. Was it an internal
organization or an external one? The overwhelming but uninformed opinion
was Islamic Fanatics. Regardless, we now knew that it was not a bomb and
there were potentially more planes coming. We understood. On
the 3r floor the lights went out and we heard & felt this rumbling
coming towards us from above. I thought the staircase was collapsing upon
itself. It was 10am now and that was Tower 2 collapsing next door. We did
not know that. Someone had a flashlight. We passed it forward and left the
stairwell and headed down a dark and cramped corridor to an exit. We could
not see at all. I recommended that everyone place a hand on the shoulder
of the person in front of them and call out if they hit an obstacle so
others would know to avoid it. They did. It worked perfectly. We reached
another stairwell and saw a female officer emerge soaking wet and covered
in soot. She said we could not go that way it was blocked. Go up to 4 and
use the other exit. Just as we started up she said it was ok to go down
instead. There was water everywhere. I called out for hands on shoulders
again and she said that was a great idea. She stayed behind instructing
people to do that. I do not know what happened to her. We
emerged into an enormous room. It was light but filled with smoke. I
commented to a friend that it must be under construction. Then we realized
where we were. It was the second floor. The one that overlooks the lobby.
We were ushered out into the courtyard, the one where the fountain used to
be. My first thought was of a TV movie I saw once about nuclear winter and
fallout. I could not understand where all of the debris came from. There
was at least five inches of this gray pasty dusty drywall soot on the
ground as well as a thickness of it in the air. Twisted steel and wires. I
heard there were bodies and body parts as well, but I did not look. It was
bad enough. We hid under the remaining overhangs and moved out to the
street. We were told to keep walking towards Houston Street. The odd thing
is that there were very few rescue workers around. Less than five. They
all must have been trapped under the debris when Tower 2 fell. We did not
know that and could not understand where all of that debris came from. It
was just my friend Kern and I now. We were hugging but sad. We felt
certain
that most of our friends ahead of us died and we knew no
one behind us. We came upon a post office several blocks away.
We stopped and looked up. Our building, exactly where our office is (was),
was engulfed in flame and smoke. A postal worker said that Tower 2 had
fallen down. I looked again and sure enough it was gone. My heart was
racing. We kept trying to call our families. I could not get in touch with
my wife. Finally I got through to my parents. Relived is not the word to
explain their feelings. They got through to my wife, thank G-d and let her
know I was alive. We sat down. A girl on a bike offered us some water.
Just as she took the cap off her bottle we heard a rumble. We looked up
and our building, Tower 1 collapsed. I did not note the time but I am told
it was 10:30am. We had
been out less than 15 minutes. We were
mourning our lost friends, particularly the one who stayed in the office
as we were now sure that he had perished. We started walking towards Union
Square. I was going to Beth Israel Medical Center to be looked at. We
stopped to hear the President speaking on the radio. My phone rang. It was
my wife. I think I fell to my knees crying when I heard her voice. Then
she told me the most incredible thing. My partner who had stayed behind
called her. He was alive and well. I guess we just lost him in the
commotion. We started jumping and hugging and shouting. I told my wife
that my brother had arranged for a hotel in midtown. He can be very
resourceful in that way. I told her I would call her from there. My
brother and I managed to get a gypsy cab to take us home to Westchester
instead. I cried on my son and held my wife until I fell
asleep. As it turns out my partner, the one who I thought had
stayed behind was behind us with Harry Ramos, our head trader. This is now
second hand information. They came upon Victor, the heavyset man on the
53rd floor. They helped him. He could barely move. My partner
bravely/stupidly tested the elevator on the 52nd floor. He rode it down to
the sky lobby on 44. The doors opened, it was fine. He rode it back up and
got Harry and Victor. I don't yet know if anyone else joined them. Once on
44 they made their way back into the stairwell. Someplace around the 39th
to 36th floors they felt the same rumble I felt on the 3rd floor. It was
10am and Tower 2 was coming down. They had about 30 minutes to get out.
Victor said he could no longer move. They offered to have him lead on
them. He said he couldn't do it. My partner hollered at him to sit on his
butt and schooch down the steps. He said he was not capable of doing it.
Harry told my partner to go ahead of them. Harry had once had a heart
attack and was worried about this mans heart. It was his nature to be this
way. He was/is one of the kindest people I know. He would not leave a man
behind. My partner went ahead and made it out. He said he was out maybe 10
minutes before the building came down.
This means that Harry had maybe 25 minutes to move
Victor 36 floors. I guess they moved 1 floor every 1.5 minutes. Just a
guess. This means Harry wad around the 20th floor when the building
collapsed. As of now 12 of 13 people are accounted for. As of 6pm
yesterday his wife had not heard from him. I fear that Harry is lost.
However, a short while ago I heard that he may be alive. Apparently there
is a website with survivor names on it and his name appears there.
Unfortunately, Ramos is not an uncommon name in New York. Pray for him and
all those like him. With regards to the firemen heading upstairs, I
realize that they were going up anyway. But, it hurts to know that I may
have made them move quicker to find my friend. Rationally, I know this is
not true and that I am not the responsible one. The responsible ones are
in hiding somewhere on this planet and damn them for making me feel like
this. But they should know that they failed in terrorizing us. We were
calm. Those men and women that went up were heroes in the face of it all.
They must have known what was going on and they did their jobs. Ordinary
people were heroes too. Today the images that people around the world
equate with power and democracy are gone but "America" is not an
image it is a concept. That concept is only strengthened by our pulling
together as a team. If you want to kill us, leave us alone because we will
do it by ourselves. If you want to make us stronger, attack and we unite.
This is the ultimate failure of terrorism against The United States and
the ultimate price we pay to be free, to decide where we want to work,
what we want to eat, and when & where we want to go on vacation. The
very moment the first plane was hijacked, democracy won.